My dearest son. Today on Sunday, April 19 2020. Mommy lost control of her anger. Your daddy isn’t to blame for my behavior. I am. I’ve never been to that place before where I was so angry that I actually acted inappropriately and said things that I shouldn’t have. Mommy was so angry. For the first time in her life. She wouldn’t have been responsible enough to take care of you properly. There are a lot of reasons that mommy was angry. But, there are absolutely no excuses for poor behavior. No matter what anybody does to you. But, my grandfather, your great-grandpa, who you’re named after said something to Nana, one time. He said to her after she had gotten so angry. ”You know where that place is now?” And her answer was ”yes. ” And he told her, ”never go back there again.” The truth is everyone has that place in their soul, in their heart. Some people never experience. The release of that sort of anger and mommy hadn’t until today. I wanted to tell you that I was sorry for my behavior. Because it affected you. By way of some things I don’t know what you’re going through right now. But the one thing I do know is, you’re not here with me right now. Because of mommy’s outrageous conduct. I deeply and humbly apologize to you. I am profoundly sorry that I went there. And I will never ever go to that anger spot again. And You have my word for that. I love you very much.