Dearest Mom,

Have you ever been so proud of yourself that there are no pros in the entire dictionary that could articulate how you feel on the inside?

I won finally, in my own way. Doing the right thing the entire time, I am on a new adventure now my new journey a new chapter in my life. 50% of my beloved son was awarded to me by a third party that finally decided that I was good enough. But this time, it seems to be written in ink. And as far as I know, you still can’t erase ink..

When it happened in the judge declared it in order of the court I couldn’t speak. I couldn’t cry I couldn’t do anything except for thank my inherited fortitude and unwillingness to give up.I feel like a whole bunch of wet laundry has fallen off of me and I have never been so peaceful in my life.

August 10, 2020.

Today, I am more proud of myself then at any time in my entire life. On the inside It feels like graduating from college was not worthy of the “pomp and circumstance” it selfishly demands.

I did it, and I did it the hard way. The easy road was not an option and when there wasn’t a path I cut one for myself and now I get to look at my son in the eyes.

The festering carbuncle. He’ll always be around.

I get to move forward and I am not afraid of any one I freed myself I’m not a loser I just happen to be a slow winner.

So many battles led to this and finally, in this final chapter in this seemingly never ending stomach churning saga. The princess finally saved her self. It’s done, I finally won.