One year and what seems like a lifetime ago.

I am not the same.

2023 there was a shift, with that shift I have found the conclusion to this book. The the final chapter was written. For that I’m blessed.

My axis was bent, in the other direction and for the first time in my life, there’s no way to fix it, or hustle it back into its previous dysfunctional dimension.

I prefer to keep it broken, bent the other way. The way I am right now in this space. This unfamiliar space it’s so unfamiliar because it’s not rigged with the usual landmines and mortar fire. Here, on this side, where I’ve been bent. I love its simplicity, it’s comfortable here I’m grateful here I’m happy for the first time in my life I can authentically say I am 100% in every way you could possibly imagine happy. My gratitude, profound gratitude for my beloved Ian has become fierce love, then the other love of my life came to be. A random angel came into my life in November 2022. It was easy to see her because she was my light in my dark tunnels, occasionally those wretched cinder blocks drag me down and I’m feeling submerged and out of breath. Or when I couldn’t take another step, literally.  she dragged me.

she made me a better person because she is a good person.   I must say the lessons I’ve learned this year I believe it’s God’s way to show me what to hold dear and what to let go of.  I dedicate every chapter, the entire book. It belongs to one woman. Kristin Avary, my best friend who saves my life. Everyday. Eventually soulmates will meet, after all, they usually have the same hiding place.