About me

I never meant to make a living writing about my life, to be honest for three months of my life writing was the only way I could communicate. I was locked inside of my head. Capable enough to pull the hair from my head until it rendered me bald. Without any more hair to pull I still wasn’t able to communicate with normative society. Except in the written form. My words were like gunfire going on in my head until they found their final resting place in My personal blog. I was finally able to open my mouth and have something other than inaudible blubbering escape. I found my voice after it had been silenced. I thought I’d never be silenced again until recently when I was. I found my way back rising again like the Phoenix. If I didn’t make you uncomfortable before, this round will do the trick. I’m not suitable for children, nor is my content ever censored. Trials of mental illness, homelessness, single parenting, and the pain and triumph of being thrown away by my entire family. Mother and Father.

How I know

All of my content is autobiographical narratives that for better or worse, they were how I felt at the moment. It may have been fleeting or fixed. Interpret it as it is useful to you in your moment reading. Don’t give up, life is really hard, and unfair. I know mental illness does not discriminate or disappear. Even if you pray really hard. There’s booze or drug. No vaccines or bandaids. Just work, I work every day to stay out of the prison inside of my head. To be the voice for all the voices that have been silenced. The newest chapter to my story just began. I am fighting for what most ignore, what most turn away, I’m fighting for separation for truth for reality. There’s going to come a time when the mountains are too tall, people stand in your way and it seems impossible.

Perfect.

OCD is a real jerk.

Joslynn Smathers,

Is a story writer for content most are too uncomfortable admitting they read. Gritty, awkward, and soulful. The female James Joyce offers her real-life fodder, trapping you inside the story so you feel the pain. Finally leaving you inside offering no solutions…Take as prescribed all future mental health professionals must use her content as real references to life living with OCD, PTSD, and other anxiety-based personality disorders. Must read.

Kristin Avary LCSW