Category: Turn the page,

• July 13, 2020

  Even the word “Hopeless,” isn’t void of the word “Hope.”

  I heard someone say that the statement I adorn this post with as my title, After today, really, after the past 5 years and the 35 previous to that. I am embarrassed to say, I think whoever started the aforementioned Shit about Hope. Is a liar. More than likely, as the “self proclaimed affirmation Queen.”…
• July 5, 2020

  These are my silent words screaming out loud.

  I’ve yet to identify “this”;whatever has taken over.It’s officially set up shop.Where the profound grief was held,held for far too long.Debilitating,Consuming;Grief. the heinous kind that makes you frail and weak.It was assumed I was Seemingly broken beyond repair.The other day at half-past four.The frail was gracious enough to take the subtle hints, and leave on…
• June 28, 2020

  Sometimes I wonder about myself.

  I’ve had a day and I learned more lessons on subject matter that I thought I possessed a doctorate’s in. Sometimes I wonder about myself. And I get distracted by something shiny, and just like that. I’ve lost my way. I surprised myself, I felt something today. It was a familiar feeling. I was sad,…
• June 27, 2020

  Yet against all odds and logic, we still hope.

  Today I taught my son how to do something. And I felt something inside I’ve not felt in 5 years. Alive, not the almost dead, barely holding on, crash team pounding on your chest alive. I thought all my chances to make him love me and maybe leave a ripple in his soul were stolen.…
• June 23, 2020

  My puppet show is a flop
• June 21, 2020

  Arbitrary Turn

  Any arbitrary turn along the way, I would be elsewhere. I would be different. They made the train tracks, through the steepest part of the Alps, before there was a train that could make the journey. They built them anyway. They knew, one day the train would come. I have never felt as though the…
• May 4, 2020

  Wait a minute, I found it.

  Wait a minute, I just figured it out. I thought I knew, hell, at one point, I thought I was. But more often than not, wait a minute , actually that’s a lie. Let’s not mince words. I never have. I claimed and said and convinced whole or half-heartedly proclaimed. Most embarrassing things come in…
• April 22, 2020

  I saw a little old man today

  A joyous revelation, I see him now. An old man. Today I saw a little old man. I’m going to tell you about the joys and astonishing first hand experience of dreading the time your eyes grow heavy, becoming tired. And your body being forced to sleep. And you know you’ll wake up again, with…